For the last nine years or so I have either been pregnant or nursing a baby, sometimes both. Those years are a bit blurry. Do I regret those years and that blurriness? Definitely not! However, now that Noah is 13 months old and he and I are starting to minimize nursing, I feel like I am coming out of a fog. I’m not all the way out, but my brain is waking up and wanting more exercise. And I find myself asking “Who am I now?” I know that I am a daughter of Heavenly Father. I very firmly believe this. As such I am a valued and special person with wonderful talents and attributes unique to me. The problem is that I’m not really sure what they are. I want to find out and enhance them and make them grow. I also know that as a child of God I have certain responsibilities. One is being a wife, one a mother. One is keeping the covenants I have made with my Heavenly Father. I want to work at these and other responsibilities.
Basically, I want to improve myself. Do I think that I’m a terrible person, wife, and mother? No. I have been too loved by too many people for too long to possibly think that. One of those people is my amazing husband who is super smart and who also tells me every day that he loves me and thinks I’m beautiful and couldn’t ever find a better wife than me. Do I get discouraged? Yes! Is life hard and I wish it wasn’t quite so hard? Yes. Am I grateful for this life? Very.
So, this blog is where I want to document my life and my efforts to improve it. Kind of like a journal. It is also where I want to have some fun. I really, really, really like to blog! I’m not sure what it is about it, but I really enjoy it. And there are lots of neat things, like Project Improv, that I would like to participate in. This will be my place to do that.
Here comes another question. Do I have time for all of this? Probably not. Time management is one of those areas I need to work on. But I am learning that I have to fill my own cup before I can fill the cup of anyone else. I can’t teach things to my children if I don’t learn them first. I can’t expect them to keep their room clean if I can’t keep mine clean. I can’t help them feel the Spirit if I am not feeling the Spirit. If I can be a better me, I think I’ll be a better wife and mom. And so this blog is about me. My adventures and pursuits. I hope that doesn’t sound selfish. I want to document what I do so that I won't forget what I learn and where I have been in my life. This blog will be a work in progress. It will change and evolve and adapt. Just like me.